如釋重負

如釋重負，我好像比較明白，這四個字的實質感受。

說出口也沒真的那麼糟啦，有時不敢面對答案，反而給自己錯誤的期待，只是蹉跎了光陰和真心。我感覺心裏有一個位置終於清空了，變得輕鬆好多；不用一直牽掛著、猜測著、揣摩著、小心翼翼、動則得咎的。

昨天課上到一半，頭突然很暈，跟學生要了耳溫槍一量，有37.5度，體溫有點高，向保健室要了口罩戴著。現在戴口罩很敏感，一發燒就擔心是不是H1N1。

昨天晚上聽了一首Tim McGraw的「My Best Friend」結果夜裏居然作了一個寫作文的夢，是基測的作文寫作，題目就是：我最好的朋友。從小我就很怕這種即性寫作，很怕腦子一片空白，但時間卻滴滴答答地流逝～夢中我慌慌張張地寫著，剩五分鐘還沒寫最後結論，只好倉促地寫下：孔子說：「益者三友，友直友諒友多聞」，然後沒頭沒腦地結束了。

還好只是一場夢啊！


I never had no one
I could count on
I've been let down so many times
I was tired of hurtin'
So tired of searchin'
'til you walked into my life
It was a feelin'
I'd never known
And for the first time
I didn't feel alone

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime i look at you
I don't know where i'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend, oh yeah

You stand by me
And you believe in me
Like nobody ever has
When my world goes crazy
You're right there to save me
You make me see how much i have
And i still tremble
When we touch
And oh the look in your eyes
When we make love

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime i look at you
And i don't know where i'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend

You're more than a lover
There could never be another
To make me feel the way you do
Oh we just get closer
I fall in love all over
Everytime i look at you
And i don't know where i'd be
Without you here with me
Life with you makes perfect sense
You're my best friend
You're my best friend (my best friend)
You're my best friend (my best friend)