To: Ju

一個人如果常常感到痛苦,原因不在一切「無常」,而是因為錯以為一切永恆「常」。
To: Ju

在幾天的寒冷之後,週六的今天陽光特別地溫暖,你把車子開到院子中,打開車內的音樂坐在裏頭看著一本甜滋滋的書,擋風玻璃望出去對面公寓最上層那戶人家,在陽台上掛了一支鮮豔的風車,緩緩地轉著,有一種悠閒的情趣。

連著一陣子陰鬱的低潮,你確實需要曬曬太陽,清除發霉的心情。中午他過來吃便當,看著週末報紙上的一週運勢,他的下週運勢是刺眼的愛情運勢旺盛,你的則是要安排一項新的學習開拓視野,早上讀到的時候已不是滋味,由他唸出覺得不僅刺眼更惹人不爽快。他離開後,你心情還有點惆悵,並感受到自己原來過往是如此依賴著他的陪伴,現在已不敢挽留了。

他總說這是可以分開的兩件事,你和另一個人是天秤兩端都很重要的人。他不明白,但你很清楚:都不一樣了。因為你失去的不是友情,而是一份不用多所顧慮的依靠。

你會好起來的。陽光依然存在並如此耀眼,我也會一起陪著你。你曾如此豪氣地對人說:「我會過得比你快樂!」你會的,加油,你會好起來的,真的!

Maybe

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振作

今天天氣冷得要命,晚上陪同事到彰師大借書,從師資班離開後,我已經有十年沒進去過這圖書館,「十年」耶!在書架間隨意瀏覽,無意中看見一本粉紅色小書-「勇氣之書」,之前有學生帶來學校,跟我說隨便翻開一頁,裏面話會有預言般的警示,於是我打開書,第一眼看到書的右側內容寫著:

今天的天氣,非常適合振作起來。

今天晚上真是冷得要命,但很希望這個預言能成真,實在很想振作起來!

左側的文字是:當你確定這扇門已經關上,在一個你所不確定的地方,另一扇門似乎已經被打開了呀!

果然是「勇氣之書」,充滿了給人希望的文字。^_^

賞梅。烏松崙

2010.01.10(日)在連著幾日陰雨霏霏及氣溫低冷後,難得的大晴天,和同事們如期出發前往南投信義的烏松崙賞梅。繼去年之後,是二度造訪烏松崙,相較於風櫃斗和柳家梅園,該區海拔更高,梅開益繁盛,梅花的生長也較具天然姿態。

同樣是早上七點出發,感覺今年上山的人潮似乎更多,整個梅區中滿是拿著單眼相機捕捉美景的攝影者,更特別的是居然賞梅的人群中遇見大學學妹和她的狗兒子,真是太巧了!

看著落英繽紛的梅花,國文老師W吟了一句李煜「清平樂」中的詩句:「砌下落梅如雪亂,拂了一身還滿。」

很契合眼前的景色,也吻合我其實紛亂的心情。有時在令自己稍稍振作一些時,陰鬱的思緒卻又冷不防地襲上心頭。真不想經歷這些,真不想多愁善感地鑽牛角尖。W即使不明白我的重重心事,仍很溫暖地傳了一封簡訊對我說:「雖然偶有陰霾,生命中燦爛的花季仍舊存在且會到來。」是啊,我會勇敢並懷抱著希望~

殘。忍。

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